Losing focus of my academic priorities will never occur again. NEVER.

With every step I take, my life will become centered around achieving my goals. No obstacles or lures will be able to prevent me from achieving anything I set my mind to.

Time to get serious - it all starts now!

Life after finals

Finals have taken a toll on my sleep, my mental health, and my weight. I swear, when I graduate I will have a degree and an extra 20 pounds on me. I've gained like 5 pounds (no kidding) in the past two weeks, just from stressing out about finals so much. Ahhh! But if I keep going to the gym and eating healthy, I should be able to lose them in no time.

Okay, off to hand a project and to the gym!

Julia

Can I just crawl in a hole and die, please? I'm not capable of much at the moment, anyways.

Update - On my "life"

Life? As of the past week and a half, it's more of like I've been pwned by life. I have no life, that is. Work, work, work - that's all it's been. Transcribing the interview has taken just too long. I finally finished it last night at about 1:00 AM. And then, I made the bad decision of looking at clothes online for about an hour, and then I realized I had developmental psych readings to do. But by then, I decided that 2:30 AM was probably a good time to go to bed, so I finally headed back upstairs. And then I realize that my room is simply a horrible mess - A clear reflection of my current mental state of being (things will get better once classes are FINALLY over). I am really looking forward to being done with this week, I cannot wait!

I'm going to NY on Thursday, and I am SOOO excited about it!!! =)

I think my laundry is finally done, and I should probably go put it in the dryer (Seeing as how Pandora is advertising me Gain and Frebreze - it must really know what I'm thinking)

I need to go back to working out - I realized I haven't done any exerting workouts for two weeks. Should I still run the 1/2 marathon in May? Yes? No? HELP!!!

*I love Simon & Garfunkel so much!

Life

Ahhhh, FML!

I had a data analysis meeting I had to attend tonight at about 6, and I COMPLETELY forgot about it. I had the data we needed to analyze, but they didn't even call me. What the hell did they end up doing?

I have so much shit going on right now that I just forget to do it at once. Oh, shit. I also forgot to print out my paper this Wednesday. I wrote it and did submit through Blackboard, I just didn't hand in a hard copy. Anna will understand, hopefully.

I really need to just do even MORE work, concentrate, and get my crap together by the end of Sunday. I need to sleep if I ever wanna recover from this cold.

Lionel, thanks for making my night with the Swedish Fish. You're the best! And, oh, Steffi, I will blame my Freshman 15+ on you!

Quickly correcting a paper, then bed.

37 minutes of an interview = 15 pages of transcription, single-spaced.

My roommate sleeps on the floor when she doesn't shower at night. It's her own bed. Oh, I just don't know.

TONS of work

I hate being sick - I really, really, really hate it. I've been coughing out my insides non-stop since this weekend, and it really sucks.

I really need to just sit down and concentrate. It seems really difficult to do so now a days. Like my head is always in another galaxy, my thought fixed upon the lyrics of some song, somewhere along lala land.

In two weeks EXACTLY, I will be done with all my classes - I cannot wait!!!

Let's see, what the hell do I have to do?

Psych 380 - We're almost done with our study - We'll be analyzing data this Thursday. I am so excited to be finally done with this!

Psych 230 - Do the child observation paper (This friday and saturday, to be finished this weekend) and the final. I believe that is all for this class.

English 274 - Gosh. Transcribe 2 hours worth of interviews, which will probably take me an eternity. Write the final response/analysis for it. I do have a partner, however, so it should only take half the time.

Bio 131 - 10 page response paper, which should be done by the 21st at 12 PM. I also have to complete my journal, which I never, EVER do. I better get cracking on this.

Italian 111 - Skit, which we will be filming, since one of the people in the group + 1 won't be here on Friday, Dec. 11th to do it live. Study for the final.

I feel so anxious right now, and I haven't even had that much caffeine this morning.

I'm gonna go back to grading shit.

Why do I always have like SOOOO MUCH laundry? It's never-ending! As soon as I finish washing, drying, and packing all that stuff, I'm gonna go out with my mom and drive aimlessly about the state. You know, 'cause gas is like so cheap these days. It's something we do when we have down time, and it's just really fun. Connecticut can be very pretty around this time, and it's so nice to have the chance to get to see it.

My sore throat is killing me. Yes, I finally got sick. I really don't know if it's just a cold or the flu, but I'm slowly losing my voice.

I have a lot of readings I want to do tonight. I just wanna get ahead, given how I may start playing club volleyball, which meets M, Tu, Th from 9-11 PM, so I just may not have time to do homework at all. Plus, I really, really rather procrastinate and not do homework over the week. Or, perhaps, attempt to study Italian, which I really should be doing.

Um, I don't know. There a lot of things that a year ago would have made me quite unhappy, but you know what? It really, really doesn't bother me. There's so much joy in my life, and it just seems like nothing can bring it down. I hope it stays like this for a while, I'm quite enjoying the big idiotic smile I have on my face all the time now.

OK, time to go pack and rush my mom to get ready. I can't be inside the house when the weather is this gorgeous!

Life as A Happy Girl

"Thought I'd been in love before But in my heart I wanted more Seems like all I really was doing Was waiting for you"

♥

I am so glad to have found you :)

Thanksgiving was a lot of fun and a lot of food. I eat WAY MORE than I should have ever eaten. I guess I won't be eating again until tomorrow night - I feel so full! Attempting to do homework while on break isn't really working, but I'm trying. I have SO MUCH reading to do, and being in the same room with my sister and her loud music doesn't really help. And I think I'm getting sick. I can feel it on my throat and my eyes are getting sleepy. I'm so tiiiiiired. It's like, I never really sleep well anymore. Without my Benadryl, I can't really sleep.

This Thanksgiving was very special for me - There are so many things that I should be thankful for - I have a wonderful family, I'm very happy in college, I have great friends, and it seems that things just get getting a little better by the day - God is just too awesome :)

A lot has happened since I last updated this journal. I feel that in just a few months, my life has really, really changed. For once, I feel that I have grown into a mature young women. I'm no longer the person I was for the first 21.2 years of my life. I am changing, and I really like it. My life is slowly taking the path I was dreamed it would. I have BIG dreams, and they all seem to be on their way to becoming a reality. No matter how tired, sick, or groggy I feel sometimes, nothing, absolutely nothing can bring down this joy that my life has been filled with. It's hard to explain it and put it down on words, but I can just say that I had not been happier before. It all just makes me look up to the sky to Him, and smile; simply, just smile.

I'm really going to get back to my reading now. I really hope I don't forget how much I like writing/blogging, and update this baby more often.

On life and other things

Ahhh, the complexities of being a 21 year-old sophomore. Classes, family, friends, schoolwork, relationships, and the such. Which reminds me, I haven't had time to do what I love most in a very long time - baking! I think Shipra and I will be making vegan brownies to tonight so she can have her brownies, and also eat them.

Sitting at the Usdan courtyard, contemplating how diverse and unique this campus is just reminds me how much I love this place.

This seems to be like the beginning of a good year, as I said before.

Gotta go to my 1:10 class. Ciao!

I love Wesleyan. I love my house. I love my housemates. I LOOOVE my classes. I love this weather. I love my family. I am currently in LOVE with life. I'm surrounded by tons of awesome people, and I cannot complain. I have a lot of work, and also two jobs, but it just feels so good to be back to the academic grind. I know, you must think I'm crazy or something, but I am really happy.

Thanks God, thank you Zoloft for making this a wonderful beginning of a wonderful year.

Canada!

Needless to say, the trip was very tiring. The second flight from Charlotte to Seattle was like 6 hours long, and I hadn't slept well the night before. The time difference is 3 hours, so I'm a bit jetlagged. After seeing Claudia and her husband, aunt Silvia and aunt Santiago came all to pick us up, it was very exciting to see them all. We left the airport at around 10:00 PM, Western Time, and the car ride was about three hours long, so that means we didn't get to Canada (Surrey, in BC) until 1:30 AM. Since my grandma and aunt Cecilia couldn't leave (They had to get a special visa for Canada, and getting out and then back in would have been a hassle), we just met them here at the house, as well as Silvia (My cousin, the bride-to-be). We were trying our best to not wake them up and be as quiet as possible, but of course, as soon as we opened their bedroom door, they got up immediately. All of us women were up talking for about 2 hours, laughing, chattering, and just having bonding and reliving old memories, it was truly special.

It's my aunt's Cecilia's birthday, so I'm sure we will do something to celebrate.

OK, out to buy soymilk and some vegan edibles for my stay.

P.S. - The weather here is AMAZING, 68 F! The young couple who I sat next to in the plane (they were coming back from their honeymoon) have just convinced me to move to the Pacific Northwest!

Awesome weather = RUNNNNNNNNNNING!!!

On my way to Canada!

I know I haven't done a good job updating my blog since I created it. I'm gonna try to update now as often as possible, given the fact that school will be starting soon.

Canada, yes, I'm headed to Canada very soon. It's been a crazy week of packing, looking for dresses and shoes for the wedding and the such, but I am finally bound for Canada! I'm in Charlotte, NC, waiting for my 6:10 PM to Seattle. I have like an hour and half, so I'm sitting in a nice "Business Lounge" with a little desk and power outlet, like a businesswoman :)

I don't get to Seattle until 8:58 PM, which in Eastern Time would be 11:58 PM. Yay for jetlag!!! The car ride is about 2 hours, so that means we won't get to Vancouver until 12:00 AM or so, local time (Eastern time, it's like 2:00 AM :s).

I'm starving. I had a wrap I had prepared myself at around 11:15, so I'm having a Luna bar to hold me off until dinner at the plane.

I'm sooo excited to see my entire family, dress up for the wedding (I'm wearing a gorgeous long gown, it's purple and it has a super-low back :)

I should really go now, since I told myself I was gonna study some Italian on Rosetta Stone.

Arrivederci!

*Photos to come once I am in Canada!

Me getting so crunk!!!

I'm 21!!!!

Yes, it's my birthdaY! My mom is playing birthday music, and we are soon going to go have breakfast and pick up my VEGAN cake at Whole Foods... yum!

Special birthday lunch, the picking blueberries in the afternoon with Susan!

Run tonight? Maybe.

I woke up with a horrible headache today, and it lasted pretty much all day through work. I came home and took a nap for like an hour, and that definitely helped. Had delicious whole-wheat pasta for dinner and now I am having blackberry-cabernet sorbet, which is AMAZING!

Somebody kick my ass for not studying Italian, please

Wisdom teeth?

I think so. My back left molar hurts sooooo bad, it makes me wanna cry. I took some Tylenol 3 my sister takes for her braces pain, and that helped me fall asleep after I had woken up at like 1:30 AM (I finally fell asleep at like 3:00 AM).

OK, I'm starving, so I'm going to wash my face and get ready for work.

Dress Shopping

I LOOOOOVE bike-riding. Yesterday, after going for a walk with my mother (I'm finally getting her to exercise with me, yes!), I decided that I wanted to go for a bike ride for at the Old Airline Trail. And so, I did. Man, it was fun! I think I went about 7 miles into the trail, and the sights were just gorgeous. There were ponds and the Salmon River running parallel to the trail - Ah, amazing. I was going full speed on that bike, with my hot Under Armor spandex (hahaha) and my sport sunglasses - I was looking fly! Anyways, yes, I was so beat after that, that I went home and took a 2-hour nap.
Today, my honey took me dress-shopping at the mall - After having lunch at Panera in Glastonbury, we headed over to Westfarms and looked for some dresses. The one we found at Forever 21 was very cute, but it was really short, so I ended up buying this http://www.gap.com/browse/product.do?cid=36291&vid=3&pid=620801&scid=620801012 at Gap. Erik got ABSOLUTELY soaked trying to find the car at the parking lot, because he got just as a cold front was passing by. Of course, just as he got into the car, the rain stopped completely and the sun came out, almost like a scene taken out of a movie - I laughed just a little.
He's taking a dump right now, so I'm waiting for him to come out.
This coming week is my last week at work, then I'm free for the rest of the summer. And I turn 21 in a week!!!

Early Morning

Why do I always wake up early on weekends? I guess it's my internal clock telling me it's time to wake up. It's Saturday!!! And, I am turning 21 in 7 days, 16 hours, 52 minutes, and 50 seconds!

My mother said she would go for a walk with me today - It's a good day.

I will go bother my mom and then feed the cat and then STUDY Italian - I really must if I want to be in intermediate in a month!

I got rid of my Facebook. I feel that I really need to study my Italian, and for now, Facebook has become an extreme distraction.
I guess I should talk about my summer, shouldn't I? I have pretty much abandoned my Livejournal, so I will attempt to write regularly on this one.
My summer has been pretty boring just working at the mail station.I deliver mail to various departments in the morning for 30 minutes, then I sit in the mail room for the next 5 1/2 hours, in case students who are on campus need to pick up their packages. No me agrada lo mas minimo la mosquita muerta con la que trabajo - Ahora posiblemente sueno como que tuviera 2 años por expresarme asi de la gente, pero esto es simplemente la verdad. La ultima cosa que hizo - Venir a trabajar la semana pasada, a pesar de estar enferma, oara enfermarnos a todos aqui. Coño,mas consideracion! Pero, que le vamos a hacer. Trabajo con otras cuatro personas que son empleados permanentes del departamento, y la verdad que no me sacan tanto de quicios como la mosquita muerta. Excepto la vieja decrepita, que protesta hastan por los codos, y el imbecil animal que no tiene el mas minimo concepto de cortesia.
Wesleyan, why do you want to screw me up with my fiancial aid? I have a student contribution of $1800 for this year that I have to pay for, because instead of them applying the two outside scholarships that I have RIGHTFULLY earned with hard work, they are taking away the grant money they have given me and replace it with MY scholarships. What sense does that make? I am extremely irritated and stressed about this. I have a debt from last year of like $1200 that must be paid in full by July 29th, or I cannot enroll for the coming academic year. I know that this is my education, and that it is only just that I contribute to it myself, since I am currently employed. But with the cat bill that I'm having to pay, and my medicines and medical bills (Because, fuck, I DO NOT have health insurance), I will have $0 savings by the end of the summer. Money issues are turning me bitter, I wish I could change this.
Oli makes my day with his funny remarks and his cheery personality - I wish more people were like him, the world would be a much better place.
I guess the only highlight about this summer is my cousin Silvia's wedding in Vancouver; most of my family is supposed to be attending this, and I am excited that we will all be together. I was at first supposed to go to Firenze for my distant cousin's wedding, but given the fact that I have never met her and that choosing to attend one wedding over the other would make my family feel bad, I chose to go to Canada. My tia Cecy promised me that once Carolina's first baby is born, we will surely go visit her together in Italy. Speaking of this wedding, I bought the dress that I will be wearing. It's mighty sexy :)
I hate that things are not really going the way I'd like them to. Not even the peach I was eating was good enough, and I am hungry.I just had to throw it out. I cannot live in the program house I want; people who have singles in that house were asked to consider switching out of them, bcause someone with medical concerns wanted to live there, but they were not willing to do that.
I might just have to live in a double - Because I really want to live in that house. I don't want the Butterfields, I want to live in a Christian environment and live with people whose values are somewhat similar to mine. A double? A double? Or the Butts? The Butts are so dull and depressing, and I don't really think I want to live there - At all. I think I'm leaning towards Lighthouse. Yep, I already e-mailed the house coordinator, as well as ResLife.It's a done deal.

I'm eating lunch right now, and trying just to chill and not think too much about the things that are bothering me.


Okay, off to study Italiano and finish my salad.